At the beginning of my senior year I said the reason I came back for a second year was because last year was fun enough for me to come back for round two. It has taken me all of my senior year to realize that this class is not just for fun. The reason for this revelation is quite simple: I had a hard time turning assignments in on time. This was so bad that as of the time of writing this I turned in four other stories today because they were all late. I had trouble with this because I would screw around with my friends during work time and tell myself “I can do it outside of class. I never did it outside of class because I thought that wasn’t fun. Another thing that kept me away from being on schedule was the fact that I would avoid interviews because I thought I was bad at it and I didn’t do it much last year. Not doing it much last year made me not want to do it this year, and it made it so my interviewing skills were not up to snuff compared to the other people who were here for more than one year. I was, and to some extent still am, bad at interviews but I have gotten better because I learned that some things are not fun. This isn’t something I learned gradually throughout the school year but it was the biggest thing that I learned. I feel this lesson hit me right in the middle of April when I realized that I hadn’t met a single deadline for this class. I realized in that small moment that I had spent so much time focusing on what I thought was fun that I might not have enough time to focus on what wasn’t. I realize that I need to work on getting over my fears because they are not fun because in the end it could come back to bite me. I have a non-zero chance of failing this class because I didn’t learn this lesson sooner. This is not written to gain sympathy. This was written as a warning to all the other people just like me who think that if it isn’t fun then you shouldn’t do it. Do it so that you don’t fail because of a dumb reason like I’m scared. I may have failed at doing things when I should have this year, but this is my vow that it will never happen again.